Surely nothing apocalyptic will happen...

So I got to hang out with my super awesome cousin today. I was pretty nervous at first because I'm nervous when I have to be with someone new. I mean he's not new, but its not as if we've spent a lot of time together. .... Or any time together. Haha. He has great ideas. He's a film maker, a dreamer, and really connects with the world the way I feel I do. I'm going to tell you about one idea he had in particular...

Think of all the hard labor jobs out there. Cart pushing, warehouse stocking.. You know, the ones that anyone with half a brain could do. People work really hard at those jobs. Maybe not putting their all into it, but the physical activity is quite high. Now think of all the jobs in the world put together.. How many of those do you think are hard labor? A huge percentage I would imagine... Think how many people are doing those jobs... Billions most likely. He and I believe people were put on this earth for a purpose. Everyone has their own thing to do. I don't mean fate, I mean they have something they are great at, and wish they could do that their whole life. Instead, they have to push their bodies just to get by so the rest of us can live more convenient lives.

Solid premise right? Here's where I may lose some of you... All 3 people reading this... You know what a mule is, right? Its a horse that mated with a donkey. Two different species that just look similar producing something completely different.. Now... Here's where it gets tricky/funny. Chimpanzees, apes, gorillas, they all are super humanly strong. They lack the verbal capacity and reasoning to function in a workplace... So... You cross a human and, say, a chimp. Two different species that look somewhat similar to produce... Humanzees. Yes Humanzees. These creatures would only be maybe one and a half times stronger than a human. You could take that down if they got unruly, right? I mean a fullblood Chimpanzee would rip your arms off and not care. Not only that, they would have the capacity to do what they're told and function at a job. Of course they wouldn't be as smart as a human. Ok those of you that went away, come back. While Humanzees take care of the manual labor, what happens to the people who used to work those jobs? Simple. Now they can function completely for the betterment of society. They can get into whatever they wanted. They can be super scientists, or the world's best guitar player. Whatever a person thinks he or she is good at, he or she can focus completely on it! Gone would be the days of someone slaving their life away to make just enough money to scrape by only to have their life, their living life, to be that much shorter. Some would say that would be breeding something for the sole purpose of doing manual labor, but think, how many people in this world are born only to do just that? I think he's onto something...

Blinded by Love. Samuelzone.

You know when you spend hours looking for something only never to find it? Then when you finally give up, it was right under your nose? What about love? Can you go your whole life looking for love not caring too much about the world at large and never find it? And would you give up looking if you figured you'd find it right under your nose according to the earlier logic? Of course if you give up, then maybe you'll never find it. Then again, its love, so logic doesn't factor in. So what do you do? Is it worth going your whole life thinking every relationship could be the one? Do you put your all into every relationship risking horrible heartbreak? Or do you take it easy and view each one with a scrutinizing eye risking pushing them away? Is there an inbetween? People obviously make it work. Nothing is ever perfect, but then why does it never work out? I've had good times, but sometimes that's not enough. Will I find what I'm looking for? Or will I settle for what I get? Will I find an amazing relationship to make up for a life of crappy endings? Or will I coast through life never finding what I truly want? I guess that's part of life. Life goes on. No need to dwell. Patience and time solve most things. But can one truly be patient in matters of the heart? It seems contradictory to me. I'm a hopeless romantic and a realist. These things do not mesh... I suppose time will answer my questions.


Or am I just being emo?

String Theory

This will henceforth be my first attempt at the blogosphere on the interwebernet. Most of my blogs will be under the influence of trance. No, trance isn't some codeword for a drug, I mean the music. So things might flow kind of oddly as they will be coming not only from my mind, but my mind entranced by the flow of trance. Another thing that is completely off topic, but will be a reoccurring theme, is me pointing out what words spell check does not accept... "Isn't" being one of them. This seemed a lot easier before I played WoW earlier...

So I've been branching out and meeting people with new found vigor. I find other people fascinating. I have this uncanny ability to be friends with whomever I meet... Minus Crystal... Although I'm sure if I tried, we'd be fine. I'm finding that most people my age or younger are quite flawed.. Ok, that's harsh, they just have so much drama and/or problems in their lives. Most of it is completely unwarranted and some have problems that wouldn't exist if they grew up a little. Yet I'm drawn to them, and they to me.. I can't tell you how many problems I've solved over the past month. Problems that if left untended would have spiraled out of control and most likely left the person depressed/pessimistic/full of anger.

I know it seems like I'm embellishing a little, but I'm really not. I know it makes me sound like a complete hippie, but every problem I've come across has been easily solved by calmness, patience, and optimism. Happiness really is key to getting everything out of life. As long as I keep an optimistic outlook and spread happiness wherever I go, I feel completely satisfied. Being satisfied helps me be calm and collected so I can face the problems I have in my life with ease. I have this constant high. Sure I get sad or upset with big things, but nothing life altering.

Back to the people I was talking about... In the last month I've helped 3 people come out from what they called a horrible depression. I'm not trying to brag, if you've been depressed and gotten out, I'm sure you know how hard it was. All of those people had friends, but they were afraid to share their feelings. They didn't know how to talk about it. (Didn't also isn't accepted as a real word to this spell check) Then over time they became alienated and withdrew even further. People thought they were weird and wouldn't talk to them. (Wouldn't also isn't.. Noticing a trend?) If any of their friends had just taken the time to talk with them, it wouldn't be an issue. All of these people just needed an ear. They needed a friend, someone who would listen unbiased, and give them words of encouragement. Maybe some friendly advice.

Which sort of brings me to the root of the problem. The more and more people I meet, the more I find out just how jaded the majority of the populace here is.. Hardly anyone is a truly good person. They don't feel a basic compassion towards others. Someone who is withdrawn and depressed is labeled weird and therefore shunned. These are normal people otherwise. Both the shunned and the shunners. They like the same things, have plenty in common, but just because some are a little shy, they get ignored. I would have to say that 9 out of every 10 people I meet honestly don't care about other people as much as they should. What makes it worse is that 4 of every 10 (or 2 of every 5 for you math geeks) only care about themselves. I don't mean they only look out for themselves, I mean full on vanity, if it doesn't effect them, then it doesn't matter. I find these people quite detestable...

High school was bad, you had your vain people... The popular kids if you will... But this is far worse. Its to the point where if one of the depressed people killed themselves, the vain people honestly wouldn't care. Heck, they'd probably say good riddance. Sure, you may be saying that's how they are, but remember that fraction earlier? 4 of every 10 people I've met. That's nearly half the people I meet. Nearly half the population that could care less if someone else lives or dies. Nearly half the people that could care less if someone is so depressed that they turn from a normal person to a recluse. That's incredibly sad. Its horrible at the same time. I know I can't change the world alone, but if helping these depressed people, or just anyone with a problem can help change just this area... Just these angry, self centered people... Then it will spread. People will take me as an example and be kind to others. And yes, I know that sounds very egotistical of me, but if you're going to have a huge ego, isn't it better to have one because you've helped better other people's lives? If that's the case, then I won't mind admitting I have a huge ego...

Hmm... As a first attempt I'd say this was ok. Not great, needs some fleshing out... But that's what subsequent blogs are for, right?