String Theory

This will henceforth be my first attempt at the blogosphere on the interwebernet. Most of my blogs will be under the influence of trance. No, trance isn't some codeword for a drug, I mean the music. So things might flow kind of oddly as they will be coming not only from my mind, but my mind entranced by the flow of trance. Another thing that is completely off topic, but will be a reoccurring theme, is me pointing out what words spell check does not accept... "Isn't" being one of them. This seemed a lot easier before I played WoW earlier...

So I've been branching out and meeting people with new found vigor. I find other people fascinating. I have this uncanny ability to be friends with whomever I meet... Minus Crystal... Although I'm sure if I tried, we'd be fine. I'm finding that most people my age or younger are quite flawed.. Ok, that's harsh, they just have so much drama and/or problems in their lives. Most of it is completely unwarranted and some have problems that wouldn't exist if they grew up a little. Yet I'm drawn to them, and they to me.. I can't tell you how many problems I've solved over the past month. Problems that if left untended would have spiraled out of control and most likely left the person depressed/pessimistic/full of anger.

I know it seems like I'm embellishing a little, but I'm really not. I know it makes me sound like a complete hippie, but every problem I've come across has been easily solved by calmness, patience, and optimism. Happiness really is key to getting everything out of life. As long as I keep an optimistic outlook and spread happiness wherever I go, I feel completely satisfied. Being satisfied helps me be calm and collected so I can face the problems I have in my life with ease. I have this constant high. Sure I get sad or upset with big things, but nothing life altering.

Back to the people I was talking about... In the last month I've helped 3 people come out from what they called a horrible depression. I'm not trying to brag, if you've been depressed and gotten out, I'm sure you know how hard it was. All of those people had friends, but they were afraid to share their feelings. They didn't know how to talk about it. (Didn't also isn't accepted as a real word to this spell check) Then over time they became alienated and withdrew even further. People thought they were weird and wouldn't talk to them. (Wouldn't also isn't.. Noticing a trend?) If any of their friends had just taken the time to talk with them, it wouldn't be an issue. All of these people just needed an ear. They needed a friend, someone who would listen unbiased, and give them words of encouragement. Maybe some friendly advice.

Which sort of brings me to the root of the problem. The more and more people I meet, the more I find out just how jaded the majority of the populace here is.. Hardly anyone is a truly good person. They don't feel a basic compassion towards others. Someone who is withdrawn and depressed is labeled weird and therefore shunned. These are normal people otherwise. Both the shunned and the shunners. They like the same things, have plenty in common, but just because some are a little shy, they get ignored. I would have to say that 9 out of every 10 people I meet honestly don't care about other people as much as they should. What makes it worse is that 4 of every 10 (or 2 of every 5 for you math geeks) only care about themselves. I don't mean they only look out for themselves, I mean full on vanity, if it doesn't effect them, then it doesn't matter. I find these people quite detestable...

High school was bad, you had your vain people... The popular kids if you will... But this is far worse. Its to the point where if one of the depressed people killed themselves, the vain people honestly wouldn't care. Heck, they'd probably say good riddance. Sure, you may be saying that's how they are, but remember that fraction earlier? 4 of every 10 people I've met. That's nearly half the people I meet. Nearly half the population that could care less if someone else lives or dies. Nearly half the people that could care less if someone is so depressed that they turn from a normal person to a recluse. That's incredibly sad. Its horrible at the same time. I know I can't change the world alone, but if helping these depressed people, or just anyone with a problem can help change just this area... Just these angry, self centered people... Then it will spread. People will take me as an example and be kind to others. And yes, I know that sounds very egotistical of me, but if you're going to have a huge ego, isn't it better to have one because you've helped better other people's lives? If that's the case, then I won't mind admitting I have a huge ego...

Hmm... As a first attempt I'd say this was ok. Not great, needs some fleshing out... But that's what subsequent blogs are for, right?